Thursday, January 31, 2008

I am so ...................

Happy......I have a great understanding HUSBAND, in many ways. He understands me. He has been really patient with me and this pregnancy. He has always supported me in all my endeavors...and there has been alot....even before the gym. I did have to steal an idea from a friend though. We can't actually have a DATE night every week but we are sure going to try. Between basketball, the busiest time at the gym, and 2 kids...we are going to try. We have made plans for this Saturday....I either want to go watch and movie and eat in Altus....or go eat a nice dinner in Crowell...so who knows what we will end up doing... Also I have 2 HEALTHY and great kids. I know that they can have their moments...days...or weeks...but overall I am pretty lucky.

LUCKY........I have had the opportunity to try many different JOB adventures. From working as the PR coordinator for the Amarillo Dillas, Durham Dragons, and the marketing intern for United Supermarkets....I even worked at a great finance company in Dallas....then I got my teaching certificate...I taught for 3 years...no plans of going back...but now I know how much we SHOULD appreciate the teachers of our kids....and now a business owner of a FITNESS GYM....one of my biggest dreams EVER...I got to experience all those fun jobs...but nothing more rewarding than being a wife and a mom...

STRESSED......With the new baby on its way....and being away from my parents has got me worried....I am wondering if I can handle 3 kids and the gym......I don't want to neglect anything...You never know what the future holds...that is another thing that scares me....

DEPRESSED.....This is not the time to be pregnant and work at the gym....Everyone is losing weight and here I am 15 lbs heavier than I have ever been and gaining every week. I just have to be focused on the end and remember I have the rest of my life to lose it...I just want a healthy...HAPPY....baby.........AND I REALLY MISS MY CHURCH in Groom.. going home this weekend just makes it harder...

SAD....A great friend of mine's mother in law is in ICU and things are scary. They have their boat loaded with everything else and now have to worry about this...I wish I could help more...JUST PRAY....PRAY....

STUFFED.....Today Toby got to come home to eat lunch with us...It is always a treat for all of us...especially me...I am been cravin' homecookin' so I made meatloaf, mashed potatoes, corn, SALAD (that Toby ate...holy cow....some of my prayers are being answered)...and Caden had his chicken nuggets...that kid has no hope...Kaitlyn must have been cravin' it too......she ate about 3 BIG helpins'...wow...and I wonder why I am gaining weight....

HOMESICK.....I miss my church as I have said many times. I also miss seeing all my family....It is always fun to go home and see everyone and just relax at my mom and dad's.

MUCH CLEANER...I did find some time and energy to clean my house yesterday... I know it is always something you have to work on...but atleast I got a good start... I have to make sure I get it cleaned by Thursday night. Girls night out at the Tucker's...

LONELY.... Toby leaves next Monday and won't be back until Friday....if you need someone to go visit...I will always welcome visitors.

HAIRY....I was supposed to get my haircut on Tuesday...but things happened and she got sick...so we had to reschedule for next Friday... let's just say I have had my appointment for 3 weeks....now we are going on 5 weeks....I needed the haircut 2 months ago....TOBY IS READY ALSO. I will have a new do...next weekend...I am ready..

EXCITED....I am going to have a GIRLS NIGHT OUT next Thursday at the house. I love to entertain and I really need to see the girls and relax. I think everyone needs it...with everything that is going around.....SICKNESS.....and the JOYS of everyday life...

(thinks for letting me just write)....Have a great day....

6 comments:

Amy said...

That was a great post. I need to steel your idea and do an "I am..." post. LOVED IT! Emotions are so crazy right now. Especially for you little preggo girls. Call me next week while Toby is gone and maybe we can take the kids to the park or to eat at the Bobcat Den and jump. If the weather is nice. You never know. Have a good weekend!

cdj said...

Great post, Steph. I am always up for a good visit, so I'll have to come over and help you clean or something next week! Or, you can clean and I can keep you entertained while you do it! ;)

Can't wait for GNO! It will be good to see the girls and get updates esp on all the preggos...I only know of two, but I'm always behind so there's probably more!

cdj said...

Oh, and I know about the haircut thing! I love getting my hair done...in fact I'm chopping it short Thursday and I can't wait! Can't wait to see yours!

Piper family said...

Stephanie - I also loved your post...and also want to steal your idea of a I AM post...it was great! I know exactly what you mean with the date night...it's so hard to find time to just reconnect with your husband and not feel guilty about spending more time away from your kids...I have to tell you about this idea in Parenting...it was a guy talking about what husbands want and he proposed the idea of a Date Day when the kids are already at the sitters...just taking a day (or part of a day) and going with your husband...maybe even catching a movie or just hanging out a Barnes and Noble or something. I'm thinking maybe the day after Valentine's. Maybe you could get Toby to take a half day sometime! Enjoy your date night this Saturday...and don't be depressed - you look great!

TREY MORGAN said...

You're a lot of stuff :)

It's amazing how many different emotions we have everyday. And so many of them are "mixed" emotions. I'm sure having a baby makes you stressed, but at the same you feel excited and happy.

Isn't it amazing how many things make us feel so many differnt things?

Being a parent for me is scary, fun, rewarding and challenging. That's amazing that all that can come out of one thing. Too cool.

Thanks for reminding me all that.

You are a blessed lady. You have a great family, you live in a great community and you have great friends.

Hope your week is good. When Toby is gone, call if you need anything!

cdj said...

Hey..great time last night. You're definitely the hostess with the mostest!